Unsettled

I can't wait to get settled into my new place. I'm staying with Cathy right now until I can officially move in on Saturday!

I hate feeling like I don't have a home. My first two days of school were awesome, but I don't think Provo is going to feel right till I can crawl in my own bed at night.


A friend recently sent me these pictures. They were taken on a very simple day which I happened to love very much

dear Brahms

I will try my very best to remember to feed you every day.

I will clean your tank every Sunday morning.

I will not kill you.

I adopted Ben's fish, Brahms. This should be interesting!

So I'm a closet writer

As most of you know, I love to write. Blogs, journals, poetry, fiction, research, you name it. It's time for me to start sharing some of it :)


Victory Woman

I am the loving mother of many,
the defiant daughter of the city.
Like a motherless child I beg for another,
someone to love me and hold me
so my weeping can be heard.
A shoulder to bury my face in;
a face distorted by childish fear.

Yes, I will be rocked to sleep -
my chest rising and falling in rhythm.
As the city moves, my tears fall to the ground;
they fall behind and are forgotten.

The blanket of night ecompasses me.
It brings warmth to my tattered soul.
The seconds progress and I awaken -
bright eyed but my head is pounding.

Vivid colors of grass and flowers,
my mind races to take in my surroundings.
I breathe in.

Let the sun penetrate my naked shoulders.
Stand up in this empty field -
put on my game face to take on the city.

Let's keep it classy

I love my life; I'm happy with the choices I've been making. Of course I make mistakes, but thank you God for allowing me to bounce back and feel alive again.

Today I have so much joy resting in me. I love and appreciate every person in my life because they teach me so much about myself.

It hurts to be disappointed by people i deeply care about. I wish you would live the life I know you're worth living. But it's okay, I love you nonetheless.



I'm moving in a week and a half, back to Utah. This time it's for the long haul. I'll come back for visits here and there, but I'll be in school for the next two years, with no summer break. I've realized recently that I'm basically as free as people come. My opportunities are limitless. Right now I can be whoever I want to be; I can love whoever I want to love, live wherever I choose to live, and the list goes on. Nothing is holding me back now. Not time, not money, not people.

Watch me goooooooooooooooo

To do list:

1. Wash my car, and mom's car
2. Clean my room
3. Do laundry
4. Buy a stethoscope and sphymomanometer for school
5. Shower and get ready
6. Tell work that I am moving



I can doooooooooo it!

I think I may have a problem

Why is it that I can sleep any time, anywhere, in any position except the proper time [now] in my bed, laying comfortably?

Every day I have to take little naps everywhere because I don't get enough sleep at night. But then when it comes night time, here I sit in perfect conditions, wearing a huge comfy (i hate that word) shirt while the fan is on, perfect temperature, and instead of sleeping I sit at the computer bored and restless.



I think too much sometimes

feeling unproductive

I've grown to love change, to thrive off of it. I'm ready for something new.