Sunday, April 10, 2011

Day Twenty Eight

Warning; T.M.I.

A picture of your biggest fear

While everyone knows that breaking a tooth is my claimed biggest fear, I have one other that might beat it to the punch.

Loneliness. No one likes to feel that way. I am not literally afraid of being alone, more just the emotion of being lonely. As Panda [mom] remembers, this started in about 6th grade when I moved to a new school. I was so shy, and really worried that no one would like me. For years I was too afraid to call anyone or try to play with anyone on the weekends. My mom would actually pay me to call people... sad. There have been a few other times in my life where I've gone through these stages of loneliness, maybe after a break up or a move. All I'm saying is that I hope there comes a time that loneliness isn't a factor in my life, and the fear can go away.

While being alone is a fear that many of us have, take comfort in a certain genius' wise words.
I will say that I'm very happy to be getting my bachelor's degree this Thursday, and I'm also happy to say that I've done it while I'm single. I feel like the past 4 years here in Provo at school have been such telling years for me. I am a complete different person today than I was 4 years ago. Instead of letting the "fear of being alone" play a role in my life, I get to learn and grow as a person, alone.

All the single ladies, put your hands up!


Evan said...

Willi girl, you're beautiful. I really do think that you'll be that woman who finds herself where no one has ever been before. If you're alone it's because we gentlemen aren't worth your time quite yet. Love and kisses

Anonymous said...

Such a strong little lady you are! So inspiring to read. I don't personally know you but I feel like you've helped through your blog during this 30 day challenge, and even before that. Keep it up friend!

Maggie Pearson